Random Thoughts About Cancer

Since Trace's cancer diagnosis, my life has seemed so out of control. That does not sit well with me, I'm used to being the one in control and now I must relinquish that power to lots of doctors in another state. I know we made the right decision to take him to MD Anderson and trust that they will do what is right for my son.

After trying to handle the stress, lack of sleep and constant tummy trouble, I finally resorted to anti-depressants and anxiety pills.

Spending 2 days at MD Anderson this past week was humbling. I always thought of cancer patients as sad and depressed....but they are actually the complete opposite, full of life and smiling. To them, a new patient is a new friend with which they can talk and interact with in the waiting rooms.

Trace was 1 of only 3 children we saw the entire 2 days at the hospital. There were signs everywhere saying that children 12 and under were not allowed in waiting areas or clinic areas....I had to tell multiple people that yes, he is 11, but he is a patient. :(

Enjoyed listening to old men discussing which flavor of the contrast they were having to drink before their tests was better and what they would much rather be eating and drinking. :)

Found Trace a "cancer sucks" button that we put on his large red MD Anderson bag that holds all of his paperwork in a large binder.

Going to the Galleria across town from the hospital at 5pm on a Thursday evening was not the brightest idea, but he wanted to go to the LEGO store and Rainforest Cafe, so that is where we went!! :)

46 children will be diagnosed with cancer today...and tomorrow....and the next day.....

September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month.